It has been 18 months since I
wrote this poem. I was in an emotional crisis then. I had failed and failed
again. There was no pride to help me then. There was no confidence to keep my
spirits from kneeling down. The mess I had made out of myself was frightening
enough to keep me away from making another attempt. There was nothing that
could make me hope. Nothing except my own defeat… thrust in my face by the
punishing hand of fate.
It has been 18 months since I wrote this poem. It
didn’t come out of the blue. It didn’t just
happen. It was the outcome of self
inflicted pain combined with a lot of realization. It was my will power being
hammered back to its self again. It hurt… I cried. But that fire only purified
me. By the time I had reached the last line, I knew… no one could conquer me.
It has been 18 months since I wrote this poem.
Today, as I share it with you, the fire still burns bright within me. I hope
the sparks can ignite your heart too…
My Own Defeat…
Maybe O’
world you took my all,
But
there’s still a beat…
Of all
those things I found and lost
I still
own my defeat.
Still I
own that ache you left,
Deep
within my heart…
These
memories still stay fresh with me
With
myself split apart…
And
still I have my shame and shadows
In
darkness left behind
I like
it more than pride and valor
It’s
getting on my mind…
I like
these darkened hues around
I like
my dreams of light
I’ll
rise again O’ world, you’ll see
I’ll
rise to win my fight!
Behold
O’ foolish fortune makers
Heed
this silent speech
I’m the
maker of my fate
You
cannot conquer me.
am always in luv wid ur pieces;ABIRAL
ReplyDeleteI love the way you instill the deep emotional element in your work. You continue to inspire so many! :)
ReplyDelete@ Arindam: always yours sir,,, always yours... ;)
ReplyDelete@ Urvashi : i certainly do hope so... i'm a revolutionist after all ;) :D :P
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